ENG/ I’m deeply sorry for this one month hiatus. I tried so many times in the past weeks to write a proper post to let you know what’s going on here, but I failed each time. Not to mention I don’t usually use my blog to speak about things related to very personal life… People who follow me on facebook have a little idea, I don’t know why it was easier to communicate about my feelings on there. Maybe it’s because it’s facebook. Maybe because my blog is an important part of me, my second home, and that I didn’t want to talk about this here, as it will mean I’ll have to admit it again one more time. But I really need to talk about it, because in the upcoming days, weeks, months… my art will only have this dark and very melancolic mood you all know. So today, I have this little light of strength that helps me to put into words what happened.
For 5 years, I was inspired, and supported by love. HE was clearly my inspiration, my mojo, my strength, my little star.. my boyfriend then my fiancé. On the first week of January, while I was thinking of how lucky I was, 2010 had to be our year, the celebration of our Love, our wedding, he told me he wanted to stop. Everything. First, he told me about the wedding. Then, us. He broke with me. I didn’t see anything come. How’s happened I didn’t see anything come!? Everything crashed around me. From this day, I only try to survive this nightmare. Without him. He was everything to me. He still is. I’m that kind of girl who strongly believe in love, and I really do believe in the “Only One”. Fortunately I do have friends and family who care for me. However I still don’t have the courage to voice what happened. I can send emails only. I recently find refuge in books, this is the only thing I can do to avoid thinking of the situation, of him, of us. I listen to music too. One day, I will think of this situation, and I will know that everything happen for a reason. But as for now, I’m only trying to survive. And this is not easy.
So now you have a little idea of what happened here, please forgive me if I’m not as productive as I was before. I will continue to work, I will try to create new stuff, and I will definitely use my blog to share all this with you, as always. I just need some time. Love you all ♥
FR/ Je voulais vous donner des nouvelles, expliquer cette absence pendant 1 mois. J’ai réussi à écrire tout ça en anglais, mais c’est trop difficile encore de l’écrire en français. Comme je n’y arrive pas, je vous propose simplement de traduire le texte en utilisant ce traducteur assez fidèle . Voilà, j’ai juste besoin de temps… Bises à tous ♥